I've personally been struggling for a while about what I'm really *supposed* to be doing with my life. I've always been in awe of people who hear God telling them to do this or go there. I pray to God and talk to Him about a wide variety of topics, but I rarely feel like He's talking directly to me about something I've come to Him with. (That brings up a whole other bunch of issues... like am I just not paying close enough attention or am I totally deaf and can't recognize when God is talking to me?)
Recently, I began to feel like my world was starting to crash in around me and I just couldn't figure out what to do. Should I react? Should I take an offensive position and get out ahead of issues or wait and just settle into a defensive position? Should I just let all of it go, not ignoring it, but just moving on without making it a real issue? (yes, I know I'm being vague, but the actual topic isn't critical or crucial for the purpose of this post.) I really feel like God helped me to take a step back and realize, maybe for the first time in my life, that I'm where I am supposed to be. No more, no less. And, I don't need to worry about getting to that next place in life. I can just slow down and enjoy life as it is. Right. Here.
There aren't words to describe how freeing that realization was for me. I've always felt that I was expected to constantly achieve. To do better, be better, want better. For now, better will just have to wait.